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I am finding life incredibly frustrating at the moment. The last semester of uni was a complete pain in the arse and trying to get all the horrific work done destroyed my soul. Pretty much turned into the ultimate recluse to try and focus myself to finish the work, and since then I've not really been able to break out of it. Barely be arsed to do anything about it either. Whole same old routine has been doing my head in for a while. cba with this house or this uni or this town or anything here at the moment. cba with the internet either, prolly best evidenced by me not updating this thing for 17 weeks, lawl. barely been online for weeks apart from browser games and not really feeling any desire to get back into things either. I guess it is all just part of the routine as well.
Went down to Az's last night, chilled out for a bit and then when I got back cba to actually do anything so I went to bed. Woke up at 7:30 for the first time in ages and it was fucking surreal as shiet. Kinda bad really xD hate having such fucked up sleeping habits. But yeah i've been hanging out with Az a lot recently as well and it's always good times but even that is starting to become part of the same old routine as well. The only saving grace was the little 3 day trip to lahndon to see the J a few weeks ago when I had to go to the BFI for Uni. I think if I hadn't had that awesome weekend to get my mind off most of the uni crap I would have gone insane by now, even though I got god damn swine flu from filthy londoners.
Ah well. Can't complain too much, really. think I'll just try and make the best of these peaceful tiems before results come back next week or whenever and I fail uni miserably :D
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[31 Jan 2009|09:07pm] |
might remember a few months ago that my dad had to have surgery for a heart condition, well even though the surgery was a success apparently the condition has come back again and he is having heart problems again. He had to retire early from his job 'cause of it which is pretty sucky. I think he has to have some more surgery but dun know all the details yet I need to talk to him again. Such a troublesome condition D:
I hope it all clears up pretty soon. :{
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Going down, diggy diggy down diggy down,
Going down, diggy diggy down diggy down,
Going down, diggy diggy down diggy down,
Excuse meee as I kiss the skyyyy
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| One more time, just because I love it |
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Have barely updated at all this summer, lawl. Ah well. Back to Uni very soon so will undoubtedly have shit to jib about. Just been chillin' chillin' recently, done nothing of note except an early little birthday gathering on saturday with the fam and my good man Az.
Got nothing else to say right now, so, enjoy sad birthday bear
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| Let me let you in on a secret of mine, me and you are different girl we don't even need wings to fly |
[08 Aug 2008|03:28pm] |
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This morning I feel I accomplished something. I took my next step to becoming a true master of myself and master of the world in and around me.
I was sleeping, you see. And last night I had set my alarm on my phone and then put it next to the bed. And I always do it and I always hate it because I hate being jolted out of sleep by such annoying noises but it has to be done, right?
Well anyway I was having a dream, I can't remember what it was exactly but I can remember that I was standing next to some woman and a man and they were trying to tell me something, and this woman was talking when all of a sudden I said to her "Wait a minute, my alarm is about to go off." Then I opened my eyes and grabbed my phone and as soon as I brought it before my face the alarm went off. I predicted my alarm triggering in my dream and it was correct. That is serious skill. I think I may actually be Yoda. We'll see how it develops.
Anyway after that I just went back to sleep anyway and had this really vivid dream that was part weird and part awesome. I was falling down to earth and desperately trying to manipulate myself so I would get blown into a haystack I could see. I could feel the rush of air hitting me and the water in my eyes and everything. Anyway I failed and bounced along the ground and then it "reset" if you will and I was trying again when I realised this ridiculous force of wind like a tornado but going outwards and blowing everything away from it was actually coming from the haystack. So being something of a psychopath I ran towards it and got shot like I was out of a cannon. I could just see the ground moving below me and rising and then falling to earth again. I kept going back and being launched out of this thing for fun and then I accidentally went in the wrong way and got blasted out to sea.
After skimming along the surface for a while (I was going fast, man) I went underwater and it was really clear and pretty and I was in some little underwater valley type thing and there were all these giant turtles swimming around and then some fuckoff giant manta ray came up past me which was awesome. Then I thought I better make a move because if these cool things could be here there could probably be some big not so cool things around. So I started swimming back but then I came across some Whale sharks so I knew I had to stop and admire them. And then one of them struck up a conversation with me. Yeah I don't know what the fuck either but he was a pretty cool guy to tell the truth. Anyway then some aggro looking shark came over and I think it wanted to attack me but the Whale shark dude was like "Don't worry!" and started having this other shark and I remember feeling perplexed because whale sharks are supposed to be fairly passive creatures and they certainly don't eat meat but this one had devoured like half the other shark and they were writhing and rolling around in some battle to the death. I just chalked it down to him being a stand up guy and not wanting a brother to die. But then they kept twatting me while they were fighting so I thought "fuck this I should get out of here" so off I went back up to the surface. And there was this little boat with a couple of people on it so I swam over and it turned out to be Frasier Crane and some woman. They offered me tea and a towel. Then some shiet with my dad and being at his house happened but I can't remember that as well as the rest of it.
enjoyable dream at any rate. I am going to go try develop my powers some more now.
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[05 Jul 2008|02:10am] |
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Days have been empty recently man. I suppose it is to do with the summer break and me generally being not arsed for life when I don't have anything to do. Though hopefully I can remedy this soon. I need to kick off with momentum and surpass the impossible! Or something like that anyway. I want to learn to drive before summer is over 'cause it'll open up so many opportunities and make life so much easier if I do.
I have been obtaining a lot of ambience music lately, just feel the need to expand my music collection and ambience is something I have been meaning to look into for a long time. I love beautiful atmospheric music, whether it's just ambient noise like Hammock or more haunting piano and string instrumentals like Explosions in the Sky's What do you go home to? Just listening to it and letting my mind drift away and get washed over by the soundscapes and let my imagintion visualise surroundings and settings. For some reason I have a strong desire to head out to the beach at around one in the morning and just find a comfortable spot and lay down and put on ambient music and enjoy the darkness and the stars. I want to feel the wind chilling me and huddle down and gaze into the black horizon over the ocean and up into the expanses of space and go there, at least in my mind. I don't know. Ramble ramble
( changed my mind 'cause shit be ridonkulous homie )
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| He might be a peasant but shine like grand royalty |
[16 Jun 2008|05:01pm] |
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Ah, I think today is going to be a good day.
Went to Uni to and chat with some of my mates about a film we're planning to make in the next couple of days, just making a film for the sake of it really (think we're entering it into a shorts competition as well). I mean we're all still here and we can take out the equipment so we may as well continue to better ourselves and make as much stuff as we can, in the end it'll only be beneficial.
Was walking back and got to the top of the hill enjoying the beautiful day, was listening to an awesome song too and just decided to sit in the shade at the top of this hill and watch the sky for a bit. It's beautiful blue sky at the moment with all sorts of different pretty styles of clouds, and the song I had on repeat was perfect for the ambience. Will post it here:
Loved this song for a while now. But yeah it just fit everything perfectly, can't remember how long I just chilled there watching the sky but it was awesome. Some dude walked past me trying to look all suave and stuff but as soon as he got past me and thought I wasn't looking he looked up to the sky as well, it made me smile. Then just before I got up two magpies landed on the house opposite me (Not really a superstitious person but ever since i've been little I've lived by the code of two superstitions, one is to do with covers on pavements and the other is that bastard magpie poem, one for sorrow two for joy etc). So yeah seeing two magpies was a good sign. Think I might chill with a beer until I head out later. Easy.
sharp like an edge of a samurai sword
the mental blade cut through flesh and bone
though my mind's at peace, the world out of order
missing the inner heat, life gets colder
oh yes, I have to find my path
no less, walk on earth, water, and fire
the elements compose a magnum opus
my modus is operandi is amalgam
steel packed tight in microchip
on my arm a sign of all-pro
the ultimate reward is honour, not awards
at odds with the times in wars with no lords
a freelancer,
a battle cry of a hawk make a dove fly and a tear dry
wonder why a lone wolf don't run with a clan
only trust instincts and be one with the plan
some days, some nights
some live, some die
in the way of the samurai
some fight, some bleed
sun up to sun down
the sons of a battlecry
some days, some nights
some live, some die
in the name of the samurai
some fight, some bleed
sun up to sun down
the sons of a battlecry
look, just the air around him
an aura surrounding the heir apparent
he might be a peasant but shine like grand royalty
he to the people and land, loyalty
we witness above all to hear this,
sea sickness in the ocean of wickedness
set sail to the sun set no second guessing
far east style with the spirit of wild west
the "quote-unquote" code stands the test of
time for the chosen ones to find the best of
noble minds that ever graced the face of
a hemisphere with no fear, fly over
the blue yonder where
the sky meets the sea
and eye meets no eye
and boy meets world
and became a man to serve the world
to save the day, the night, and the girl too
some days, some nights
some live, some die
in the way of the samurai
some fight, some bleed
sun up to sun down
the sons of a battlecry
some days, some nights
some live, some die
in the name of the samurai
some fight, some bleed
sun up to sun down
the sons of a battlecry
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First things first I suppose, got grades for the year at Uni the other day, got a 2:1 overall for the year which I am happy with, especially considering 2 out of the 6 units were severely marked down for late hand-in. Bodes well for next year. Also our 5-minute Film got a ridiculously high First, 87% 'cause we are the fucking daddies. Loved it like a brother. :D
Gonna do this:
“Comment on this post and I will choose seven interests from your profile and ask you to explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.” which I got from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kendalish. I have a nice range of mine to explain from easy to awesome. So yeah, from easiest first getting to the epic ones:
69 dude! - Bill and Ted quotes for great justice. From around the time when Me and J were in Bill and Ted mode on EoFF. Plus both of us are failures and insist on keeping our LJ interests at exactly 69, lawl. But yeah, Bill and Ted are clearly most excellent. *air guitars*
Batle Royale - One of my favourite stories evar. Originally a Novel, one of the best I have ever read, one of my favourite films and also a Manga that I have read two volumes of but stopped 'cause cba to download and then the site I was getting it from went offline so yeah. I would definitely say it's worth it if you can stomach the concept and slightly grizzly bits. But the Book is far worse than the film in that respect. After I read it the second time pretty sure I'm not going to read it again for another 5 years at least, as while it is a fantastic book it is horrifically depressing. Not sure I can handle it again for a long time. But yeah, love it.
sexybeeeeeeaaaam~~~~!! - Me and Rye being spooty and our nickname for Yaguchi Mari from Morning Musume 'cause that is her signature move. So yeah partly there 'cause of the spootiness, partly there because I love her because she is ridiculously cute. <3
nosepass - This one is to do with Rye and her magnificent gigantic Italian nose. She claims it makes her resemble the pokemon Nosepass, and thus her nose became known as the nosepass. Well, between us anyway. 'cause we're freaks. :D
weasel - This started hella back in the day when me and J used to play yahoo pool and literati quite often. My little yahoo icon dude is always that Blue Devil doing the peoples eyebrow, and James used to use this ghetto creature thing that we assumed was a weasel. I think the first time he came in with it I was like "WEASEL!" for no apparent reason. Anyway after that every time we went in we had some sort of speed war to see who would be the first one to shout WEASEL! I don't know why, we were freaks. Anyway it spilled over everywhere and basically for the past 5 years it's been our greeting, whenever we talk to each other on MSN we generally open the conversation with "weasel". And that's how it goes!
Monglian Foresight - Okay this all stems from the fact firstly that me and James have a war of refusing to acknowledge each others heritage and claiming something otherwise, such as I call him Turkish when he's actually Iranian and he calles me a Monglian when I am actually Nepalese. Anyway I have always occasionally predicted things that would happen just out of nowhere every now and then, not by any concious decision, it just happens. Like for example when a friend was round and he was flicking through music channels and I told him out of nowhere to put on Mtv2 'cause a certain video would be on, he turned over and lo and behold, it was just starting. I did that a few times when he was over actually. But yeah, when I was over at J's once we were playing the mandatory game of Mario Party and I predicted that Daisy was going to be a hag and steal all of J's coins, and she did. And then I predicted she'd lose them all to me, which she also did. And then there was something else I told James to do and he'd win, so he did it and it worked and he won. I can't remember exactly my memory is shit, he might be able to remember better. But yeah he was all "how the fuck are you doing this" and I claimed it was my Mongolian foresight. I got skills, yo. The blood of Genghis Khan is in me.
No, Don't!!! - Best fucking one of the lot. I am just going to quote the entry where I explained this the first time 'cause I did it pretty damn well then:
"Had a fun time with Ant and James being down here, did a load of amusing and fun stuff and all that jazz, I'd recap the entire thing but yesterday just overshadowed everything through sheer amount of amusing things and levels of awesomeness so I'll just do that instead.
So anyway it started off with us going to Flambards, biggest bag of shit worst Amusement Park the world has ever seen. It was funny just because it was so shiet. I beasted Ant and J at mini-golf and then won this random American Football soft toy thing on one of the basketball games. It got to be a pain in the arse to carry round so I was going to bin it and then Ant was like "don't do that, give it to a random small child" and I had to say "Dude, I ain't giving a random kid a gift, that's way too dodgy" and so yeah. I decided I wanted to put it in the random class victorian village place they have, to see if anyone would notice it. At first I wanted to put it in a mans hand so it looked like he was catching it, but then in the bakery there was this basket of bread on the floor so we put it in there and left it to hopefully confuse people.
Anyway the first properly funny thing of the day happened when we walked past the random test of strength machine, you know, these thingies:
only it had coloured lights all the way up it and an LED screen not a bell at the top, and the thing you had to hit was this red button the size of a keg a couple of feet in front of it. Anyway the dude across the way saw us looking at it and he was all "Do you want to have a go, lads?" so I said "yeah, why not." It cost like a quid to get three swings so Ant paid and took the first swing. He got the mallet, fucking huge thing off the dude and walked towards and then round the red keg button. At first I thought he was going to get a different angle or something, some sort of filthy italian test of strength hax, but he walked right past it and I was thinking "what" and then realised that he had walked right up to the pole and was about to twat the yellow box with all the electrical crap for the machine in it. He literally lifted to swing when the guy noticed and was like "NO!!! DON'T!!" arms outstretched trying to make the save from 10 feet away, his face was so afraid. Then Ant turned around completely oblivious "what" look on his face and it just went downhill from there. Everyone in the near vicinity was dying, I was laughing so hard I was in tears. Totally failed at my shot, and kept dying even after we were gone. At one point I had to lean on Ant just to make it to a wall to sit down 'cause I was laughing so hard I couldn't walk. Even just typing that out now has had me crapping my pants laughing again."
I swear to God it was beautiful. You could just see the look of horror on his face as his entire career as a theme park attendant flashed before his eyes and was about to be over at the hands of this idiot with a giant mallet. I will cherish the look on his face and then the gormless one on Ant's until the day that I die. And the rest of that day was amazing as well.
but yeah there we go. those be my answers. Also seeing as I have a crapload of ghetto interests I'll explain them if anyone cba to post them.
tiem for dinner, easy dudes
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[05 Jun 2008|03:48pm] |
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Yeah I can't really be arsed to make an update to this thing but there are 12 minutes left until my training updates on FTP and I need to kill those 12 minutes and I've exhausted every other option so here I am.
There has been far too much crap happening in these last 10 weeks for me to update about in full so I will give a little brief outline of some of the suave things that have happened:
- In April I went to see this ridiculously awesome wadaiko drumming group called Yamato, they were here from Japan and they were fucking sick. They have a bunch of stuff up on youtube if anyone is into that stuff but I cba to go find it so yeah. But yeah they did all these crazy awesome drum routines, from unbelievable just ridiculous drumming to these awesome little comedy skits, it was awesome. One woman had full on Manga hair and she was pretty cute and she was also a fucking beast, she was awesome. They did this one track where they got the big gongs out and they were drumming with like kendo style moves and the vocals in the background and atmospheric shit made it a straight throwback to the edo period. Would love to see them again
- Also managed to get to London to film our movie an' shit. It was pretty god damn epic apart from having to spend 15 hours in a fiat punto with 4 other dudes and about £5000 worth of filming gear. But even that was fun because we dicked about so hard, windows down in traffic jam singing Wham! songs at random members of the public who loved it like a brother. Filming went really well, got almost all our footage done in a day and got some real real good stuff. Our actor Ed was the badman as predicted, but Nick was kind of shit. Has become a bit of a running joke between us but eh, it was still better than using the shit drama club actors from Uni (they are fucking horrific, seriously.) We got offered crack by some random drug dealers when we were filming the murder scene and also some mateyboy was all "oi what are you doing" with his phone out ready to call the cops even though there was a camera and film crew about two feet away from this murder that we had to shoot about 15 times because of fucking dickheads ruining the shot. Most of them I could forgive but the last straw was when we were doing the fucking BEST take, it was better than anything else and all of us were like visibly excited by what was going on, and this absolute prick motherfucker at the top of the road (we were filming under a canal bridge) was walking his big ass german shepard walked up, saw what was going on and stopped (I thought "cool, he's going to wait for us to finish) for about 5 seconds then let his dog off the fucking lead and let it run into fucking shot. I was seriously about to hit him in the face with the boom mic (sound man lawl) but thought better of it 'cause that shit is expensive. Also got to film the Orange Goblin gig which was sick, they destroyed all who came before them. There was probably more shit I meant to talk about here but I forget.
- Made our silent surrealist film as well which also turned out pretty good, just some dude tripping balls on hallucinogenic cheese and going on a quest for more. Lead to a few funny moments with our old Chinese practical lecturer who kept telling us to not drink when we film, get high! you get high! unfortunately I think he wants us to get fucked on opium. I will try and get copies of the films and get them online at some point.
- My Halo medal chest is looking prettier and prettier every day. only need three moar medals to have all the medals there are.
- Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann is better than you. No, don't try and argue, you're wrong. You're shit and it is God. End of story.
- Got fucked off my face at the end of year shindig for the first time this year the other day, crawled into the house at 4 in the morning and regret it. Don't want to know what I was doing because I am afraid of how embarrasing the shit I said was. Pretty much confirms that I do not want to be in that scene anymore, so fuck getting wasted.
- Don't know what else I should talk about. Don't know if there is anything. Ask me questions I don't know. Just noticed I was in a foul mouthed mood today, lawl. Oh well. :}
Anyway that settles that I am off again now love you all tata
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| It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you, without a dope beat to step to, step to step to |
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I haven't updated this thing in ages. I would like to say it's because my life has been so busy and full of awesome world defeating adventures, but really it's been because I'm a boring bastard. :D But I guess I have some things I need to touch on, so. I'll seperate that shit up.
( Get the boring shit out of the way with first, so...Uni. Although I guess I have to talk about working with PRO ACTORS OH HO HO HO so you know )
( So we're going to be filming an Orange Goblin gig )
( Gaming lief, from Apollo Justice to Halo )
( My cousin commit suicide )
( To finish on a better note...wallpaper? )
Oh before I go:
If you comment on this entry I will:
» Tell you why I friended you.
» Associate you with something - fandom, song, color, photo, word etc.
» Tell you something I like about you.
» Tell you a memory I have of you.
» Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
» Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
In return, you must post this in your LJ
I'm going to do this shit because Jess is a nublet who makes promises she does not keep (just like the people who run her football club, ho ho ho) so I will have to make up for her nubbyness. So yeah. Okay now i'm really going bye
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Man we just got all our work from last year grades back this morning. I was dreading shit because I did horrible work so I was expecting the worst.
Approaches portfolio I accidentally submit something late so I got 40% which is JUST a pass, 'cause that was the maximum you could get, but it would have been a borderline 2:1/2:2 if I got it in on time which would have been immense considering half of it was utter shit. And that would have made my overall grade a 2:1 instead of a 2:2. So that is pleasing to know. Anyway...
Our film craft group got a 2:1, which is awesome because we didn't submit one film so I don't know how that happened but I'm not complaining.
Then the fucking shocks came. That horrifically bad not enough research essay I did the day before it was supposed to be handed in? 2:1. I could not fucking believe that, I was literally expecting a 3rd and it got a 2:1 and my tutor who graded it said it was better than some peoples who had done it full on proper. And then if that wasn't enough shock...
The script I wrote, and the whole screenwriting portfolio? FUCKING FIRST BABY! I seriously did not fucking expect that. The tutor absolutely loved it, she is adamant the film needs to be made and she thinks the idea could easily translate to a feature length. I am seriously stoked to hell about that, the scriptwriting and screenwriting stuff was one part of the course I was really interested in and yeah. I gunned it. :D
So overall I'm over the moon 'cause I was seriously expecting horrific grades because of the last two parts of last semester and instead I would basically have a good 2:1 if not for the late hand in. Fucking lush :D
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